brittle

I have my lj account for a long time. I've been following some communities for over a year now. But I never posted an entry to my journal, well i had some attempts but I never continued. Why? I found some answers finally:

1. i never managed to write a simple diary regularly. I always envy people, who writes diaries or at least take notes of their observations, thoughts whatever.
   
2. i have the question " what's the use?" always on my mind. this constant question keeps me from writing to lj and sadly I realized that i ask myself this question almost for everything i intend to do and so it keeps me from doing anything new, exciting. how can i find what i want to do with my life if i try nothing new?
3. what if i can't express myself in english? this was another setback.Then i said what the hell i can write in turkish whenever i'm blocked.

I changed a lot in 2007 and continue changing. I started to see things differently and i'm wiser. I learned some lessons. It's me who had been preventing myself. life is out there and it's me to live it.